I was thinking today about bitterness and brokenness. I was thinking about how we put protective shells around us when we are hurt and broken. Like a cast around a broken leg to help the bone get a chance to be supported and healed.
But what if? Just what if we never take the cast off the leg? When we get a cast people commiserate with us. They autograph the cast and help decorate with fun sayings or pictures. Kind of like when we are newly broken emotionally and people listen and comfort, you know? And really no one blames us for a while if we are taking measures to protect ourselves. Maybe some will even encourage us to harden ourselves.
But again…what if? What if we never take the cast off? What if we forget to allow ourselves to be tenderhearted and kind again and just stay hard? It stinks really. Then atrophy sets in and the limb becomes useless. We never walk quite right.
A cast is heavy, inflexible, picking up dirt. Bitterness is like that. Makes our hearts heavy, hard and looking for the worst, letting it cling to us. Long after the real need for the cast around our soul, the cast of bitterness brings attention to the wound that should by now be healed, ready for training in moving, building muscle operating as a fully functioning part of the body again.
When it comes to the wounds of the soul, we don’t get to wrap up in layers of gauze and plaster so we wrap up in anger, a cold shoulder, snippy remarks, gossip and so on. That is the cast God comes to remove.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
He does not promise life will not hurt ever again. But He will be our strength and His hand will hold us up. He will be with us. He will be the one to harden us to difficulties in a way that does not cause our soul to atrophy but instead can make us stronger.
When we are taking off old things making way for the new year, bitterness is a cast it is time to remove. Time to take out the surgeon’s saw of forgiveness and cut that thing off.
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My cast is way to hard to be taken off & my soul is way to broken! I know that only God can fix it & heal me, but he never here comes for 7 year’s straight now, plus 3 year’s off & on, plus 2 year’s off plus another 2 1/2 years for a total of 14 1/2 years! Plus the curse of my family for about 80 years! When is God going to break my family curse & why does he allow it, especially for so long! Why don’t God know that I absolutely have no more strength anymore! I can only manifest being there with him because I am to broken! I have left it in God’s hands & the door never knock’s & open’s! I wait & listen, I wait & listen, I wait & listen for that Blessing & it never ever happens! I know you aren’t suppose to be jealous of other people, but I can’t help to be jealous & wonder why don’t I ever deserve the love & family that they all have & the tears automatically come! Why not me? It isn’t fair! How can I forgive myself if I am not forgiven by the one that I need to forgive me?
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